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Tuesday, January 24, 2012
When empty meaningless words fill, feelings with drain, I don't know anymore, I don't want to feel like I'm lying to you when I say it every night . They say you'll know it when you know it but I thought I knew it and it became a deep bruise, a scar. How cab I trust myself I feel so confused. I wonder but I cry when I think of doing it. Do you think its just a lack of colourful promises ? It's nit pretty anymore and I don't wanna talk to you anymore because it gets me so angry and annoyed all the time, thinking you never think of anything as serious . Why drag the end when the end is near. I don't want to be with you tonight but as I think of it I don't want to see you hurt ever. But just sometimes god I hate you so much, stop touching me. I pray night after night this would change with the New sun.Tuesday, December 13, 2011
humans ?i wish all of you saw how fortunate you are how they stay for you regardless how you push them away for puny reasons but like you, i did all those except i became like candy wrapper Wednesday, October 19, 2011
and like how eventually friends would leave us, i bid you farewell, old friend. I will almost miss you and maybe we'll meet again, maybe not but for now, i'm fine without you although i feel empty and unlike myself i know its for the better youll be fragmented memories haunt if you must but never stay because as much as im trying to believe i dont need you Tuesday, September 20, 2011
i have no tear ducts :)Wednesday, August 31, 2011
why arent you listening
why arent you listening stop it stop im not fat seriously fuck you, stop it stop stop stop stop stop it please youre disgusting i dont want to hurt you just stop please Tuesday, June 14, 2011
it feels so good herewhere youve been trying so hard to get me out away from myself and this habit i just wanna try it i already have it and i just wanna know how it feels like i wont tell anyone and it will only be one Tuesday, June 7, 2011
baby girl, this is from the past mel to the future mel dont ever give up on anything because look at yourself how much youve gone through and what are all those compared to what youre facing now youve been through it before this is nothing you're truly amazing, beautiful , and no one can say anything to change any of that ask God for help he's there forever there nothing can change that i love you mel iwould love you even if you dont love you nothing can take this love away nothing so please be strong no more tears no more Sunday, April 3, 2011
i gotta work on my smileThursday, March 31, 2011
fuck you melreally you're a fucking piece of shit i hate you for always feeling so fucked dickhead stop thinking about everything under the damm sun Tuesday, March 29, 2011
i like thislistening to john mayer when no one's awake thinking about the city lights and nothing else Thursday, March 24, 2011
how can it lastwhen i'm afraid to tell you how i really feel because you turn angry and frustrated at me when i do? bitter tears that really are unnecessary but i'm sorry because this is who i am Wednesday, March 23, 2011
insecurity and hate i hate how insecure i am i am imperfect i am nothing to this world i cannot do anything right i screw up everything everyone else is better why would anyone be my friend fine be angry at me be irritated by me but really havent you felt this before havent you ever felt inferior call me a girl, call it menstruation things that i havent told you how everynight i feel like crying myself to sleep no , i do not want any attention because i dont want to have any friends listening is tiring i hate the human race , because everyone else is selfish i am selfish i hate myself and everyone around me why the hell are we like that immature cunts youre not even funny have heart my nose stings my eyes feel hot it will sting it will sting theres too much noise im writing with my conscience closed im trusting you as my heart i dont even love the people i love mad please call me crazy it will give me an excuse to keep feeling this way i know you are angry i know you are frustrated i feel that way too but please understand me why am i this way i dont know i only know i hate this i cant see its blurred just go just go dont leave me here im sorry but its not my fault i cant help it i can smell wood i can touch cold i want to stretch my arms hear the breaking of fibre box pop i am not beautiful i am ugly i have nothing of worth call me lousy because i am yes yes yes i will sleep like this like a old friend and a secret affair and i dont even love the people i love
Thursday, March 17, 2011
a disability you forced me to learnhow is the rain? can it harden like it does? silver cold walls against pushing,pulsing, red stones always lie because we know we can but i have heart feelings wash secretly, i hate breathing not like it has never crossed our minds migration is always nice biting strips would love to crawl on wrists yes, silence is golden Tuesday, March 15, 2011
hush now babyits time to go to sleep mommy and daddy have counted all the sheep hush now baby dont you cry mommy and daddy always by your side Sunday, February 27, 2011
I feel like crying when i talk to you.Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I'm sorry.Thursday, November 18, 2010
Its more than any word could explainover and over i fall into your ocean eyes and with each time we kiss it will run through every vein in me i imagine - a dark cool air gently caressing my walls seeping under each of my doors filling me from within We are forbidden lovers I need you but i dont love you, i will never, ever love you but i know you will always wait wait for me to fall Wednesday, November 10, 2010
hello. my name is melody. i am a happy girl. kthxbai. Friday, October 22, 2010
Oh God , please not here again.Wednesday, October 20, 2010
until my knuckles bleed,until tables overturn, until chairs hit the fans, i can't seem find any other way to get rid of this feeling i want to scream, i want to cry till i can't breathe i want to go back to the evil in my head so i can feel comforted its been so long, i've missed it but i know i cannot go back Sunday, October 17, 2010
we say we'll remember each other when the time has come for us to leave, but we all know that's just a broken promise because life will never allow us to live in the past , we have to keep moving forward even if a friend stumbles it's cruel and painful to see you guys go when i know that this just isn't right my best wishes to everyone who's taking their O levels in a week's time, put in everything, everything, thats left alive in you and finish this obstacle knowing you've given all with nothing left for this exams ♥ Monday, October 11, 2010
strangers in this house, we're merely bound by name. you don't know who i've grown up to be, it's just hi and bye everyday. does it kill you to smile. will it hurt if you laugh. you knew this meant something to me, so i can't help but feel cheated .but maybe i'm being a bitch. unreasonable and insensitive to our needs as a family. stop slamming the doors. it's too much noise. this sucks .Thursday, October 7, 2010
i just want to be with youWednesday, October 6, 2010
Love, you take what's mine and broken, and in turn, give me your heart to care you're everything i never imagined to have and i stare blankly at you it's not that i don't want you but you're too good of a blessing and i ask myself if you're really mine to keep call it insecurity, call it foolishness but it's hard to not to be afraid when you have happiness in your hands. Saturday, October 2, 2010
we are children wanting to grow up too quickly 'Love' misunderstood, misused, thrown around like It means cents Monday, September 20, 2010
Acquaintant, I don't know you. You , are a dream. The more i say , the less you thought you knew. Strangers , interlaced, I don't know you. My perfect stranger, tell me you are not just another guest I'm a refugee, seeking love in your heart, I don't want to belong anywhere else. Sunday, September 19, 2010
You never come to visit anymore, Old friend. You used to be the only one i could seek shelter in. But things change, I've met someone amazing, someone i'd trust to treat me right. Haha, Old friend, I bid you good fucking riddance . Friday, August 27, 2010
Lately, i've just been all over the place,insecure, lonely and angry. Just a mess i try to hide i'm sorry to the people who've had to go through this with me you ignorant bastard, join them if you like, you're better off with them anyways. just know, you'll learn one day the hard way that pleasure isn't everything. i've loved you unconditionally, sacrificed, gone through your breakups, stayed with you while you slowly killed yourself but still i never feel you appreciating one second of my existence my strength, my support you held me , your love, it lured me out of my evil thoughts, i am forever grateful to your kindness. i'll try my best to love you with all my heart but please accept me as an incomplete person and promise me you won't run away i look into the mirror and i see you my deepest fear, i swear i'll never be like you, i'd kill myself . Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Have i really changed that much, till strangers tell me i dont smile as often? i pray for Hell to take back the past, i pray for God to please help me move on. But still , i make the same mistakes even if my head screams for me to stop. I hate you. I hate you so much. I don't understand why, it's so hard to keep up. It's been so hard trying to maintain bonds. I look at love and open doors but i don't have the energy Friends, all ever willing, waiting to support, but it's just too tiring to talk , too tiring to keep awake. I never really saw the point in keeping friends anyway, it always seemed like too much effort, and then they go to waste. wait for me
Monday, August 16, 2010
There is something about the haunted, that is beautiful beyond words. how slippery are our tongues, so quick to utter judgements to the different but when the feeling takes it's turn and possesses you, you will know how it feels, to love the hate to admire the broken to marry the unwilling i cannot tell you how i feel, when life has merely been a passing wind to me, i await and anticipate the day i meet my maker, i have so many questions to ask. He will take me in His arms like no one else has ever did, He will tell me He had loved me all the while, and has never forsaken me, He will tell me it was alright to have made mistakes on Earth, because this is not where i'm meant to be, He will tell me that I am of meaning to him, and till that day, He will watch me from above with loving eyes until i return home to Him again. Sunday, August 15, 2010
i dont want to disappoint myself anymore, please tell me it is okay, okay to have made mistakes in the past, okay that i am not the prettiest, the smartest, the most caring, i am insecure. i don't know how to chase my dreams because i don't believe in myself i love being by myself , the human race disgusts me why are we so weak, shallow, immature, cheap. i like being out at night, seeing the city lights bleeding on the roads the cars , their headlights, so close to me, it makes my blood run pure , pleasure. i dream of the day where i can walk these roads alone with no one else but myself its not that i don't love you , i think i do - but i cant trust anyone, anything but the voice in my head it has been the only person who has stood with us through each second. old friend, you know i can never leave you. but have mercy, please, i beg of you, let me make this life worthwhile. solitude is bliss
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Truth be, I would much rather watch the city skyline by myself than spent my night out partying Truth be, I would much rather spend my time alone than hanging out with friends I don't mind being alone, it really isn't that hard. I have a friend, he lives inside of me, he knows everything - the past, the hurt, my loves, my hopes he helps me to keep sane and talks to me whenever no one else does he tells me to leave the past and run, run, run, he says one day i will find my identity, it will be Just like everything i ever imagined it to be, it will make sense. I will sprint, I will dive, I will crawl, Anything, anything to find myself. I believe that everyone was born good, family background, friends, circumstances, they all don't mean shit. It was pure Choice that got us where we are. Friday, July 9, 2010
Angst [æŋst (German) aŋst]n A feeling of anxiety or apprehension often accompanied by depression 1. an acute but nonspecific sense of anxiety or remorse 2. (Philosophy) (in Existentialist philosophy) the dread caused by man's awareness that his future is not determined but must be freely chosen [German] It will never matter what i do, where i do it, or who will be affected by it. I will always disappoint someone out there , and that's something I'd never be able to change. Have I been been shortchanging myself all this while or were the expectations made of me inaccurate and unachievable? A big , big heart but easily taken advantaged and influenced by. Talented with so much potential but ill-disciplined and lazy. Key figure of the club but doesn't want to step up and take the lead. I feel stupid, blind, scared, intimidated, afraid and regretful. She says they've been supporting me by throwing opportunities in my face but i've been running away from them - and reality . She says i'm no longer who she thought i was three years ago, cheery and hopeful. Now ? Angsty and restless. What have i been doing. How can I save myself. I know i've made too many mistakes, lost too many friends and lost my sanity all in the short span of a year but you don't know how hard it has been fighting the war inside let alone face the tough world outside. The human mind is fragile. More scary than any supernatural power and more beautiful than any matter. It will not resist plunging into the deepest corners of your mind. It will love depression, entertain suicide thoughts, and stand in awe of evil things. But it can, love selflessly and unconditionally , persue good and healthy deeds and make each and everyday you wake up seem like a blessing and a opportunity. I need God. depression
Monday, July 5, 2010
its been awhile my old friend, today, i licked your skin and it reminded me of how lovely you are. you are beautiful, you are captivating, i had buried you so deep in my lies, i fooled myself you weren't here anymore. but you will always be there, here and everywhere as long as i breathe have you learnt to love? no, because you haven't killed yourself. you have seduced my friend, my family, do you not feel guilt? i can't keep away from you, you are like the joy and estacy from kissing. but you just make me want to kill myself, my heart, filled of regret and anguish . i want to kill you , it would be a sacrifice worth. no,don't look at me with your eyes, i don't want to touch you. take back your words, i'm not insane, you are. i don't love you , i never did . get out and never come back. i will follow you wherever you go
Monday, June 28, 2010
Run and laugh, keep this up and you'll forget the past, nobody will ever know of it again, they'll keep it as hidden as the pain Saturday, June 19, 2010
i forgot how sweet it tastedFriday, June 18, 2010
i hope it doesnt happen all over again.Friday, June 11, 2010
i love looking back at my past and feel totally comforted by the simple things that had made me so happy :)Thursday, June 10, 2010
sometimes you feel sad for no bloody reason and you can't do nothing to get out of it even though you so badly want to . i think it's time to sleep.Tuesday, June 8, 2010
no it was never about the worldit was always about me i am a special child i need your attention, i need your love. never put me down because i wont know how to handle it the government , they don't care about the bullies and the magazines all of you you all look the same you are just copies my head hurts no one told me sleep was this good. Monday, June 7, 2010
God > family > friends what doesnt kill you makes you stronger . Saturday, June 5, 2010
no more mistakes, cause in your eyes i'd like to stay. what do you do when everything you thought worthy about you is taken away -a pretty face,a slim figure. a good reputation. maybe she's never been called ugly. maybe he's never been called fat. and maybe the sea that would part for her now kills her with each wave that pushes her aside. sometimes i think i'm crazy. when i see celebrities all glamed out and perfect. oh, how much i would give to have what they have-sometimes i get lost. i don't think we see what we're doing and maybe i'm just thinking too much. but give acceptance a chance and maybe everyday will feel that bit brighter. Friday, June 4, 2010
cupid didn't shoot me with an arrow, he hit me in the face with a ball. good job. Thursday, June 3, 2010
if i ever saw a shooting star, i'd wish for a happily ever after.if i ever saw a shooting star, i'd wish for happiness for everyone i love, but i didn't see a shooting star, It was a plane on fire. Wednesday, June 2, 2010
everyone has those days when all you want to do is turn on the air conditioner, turn off the phone, shut the door, eat a bowl of cereals and watch OKto. No?i miss you. Monday, May 31, 2010
less is good .i've been keeping my dreams unbroken didn't i tell you, i'll stay for good. oh sleep, i need you now. Friday, May 28, 2010
please don't make me cry .Wednesday, May 19, 2010
hearts recycled but never savedSunday, February 7, 2010
what the fuck is wrong with usMonday, January 18, 2010
the thought of you i fear, the thought of you drives me up the fucking wall. I don't want to die
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Oh God, spare us a minute or two There's so much I've yet to see, There's so much I've yet to do. Highlighters and cigarettes
Saturday, January 2, 2010
You left me first, so I can't leave.Sunday, October 25, 2009
Let depression kick in.Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I've tried to climb your stepsI've tried to chase you down I've tried to tame this mind Thursday, October 15, 2009
(: Life is good.Tuesday, August 18, 2009
what to do when you're blindSaturday, August 1, 2009
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() i come undone. baby, you make murder feel good. look what you've done to me. Thursday, July 16, 2009
you'll always be the one i know i would never forget.Keep these memories, locked up safe and secure. Ten years from today, she'll walk down the aisle, lover's hand in hers, you promised you would be there. Sitting there in the pews of the church, or the one who would lift her veil, you promised you would be there. Saturday, July 4, 2009
baby, i'm free falling into your arms.won't you catch me? Saturday, June 27, 2009
with 16 seconds left on the clock, he's on your mind . i'm losing you and it's effortless Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Of all the words, you had to say 'goodbye,'Friday, June 19, 2009
This is the deep and dying breath of this love that we've been working on Can't seem to hold you like I want to, so I can feel you in my arms. Nobody's gonna come and save us we pulled too many false alarms. I was the one you always dreamed of, you were the one i tried to draw. How dare you say it's nothing to me, Baby, you're the only light I ever saw. There's something about you, I just can't quite figure out. Everything you do is beautiful, everything you do is right, so don't let go of us tonight, Love's not always black and white. Oh, Haven't I always loved you? I would change the world, if I had a chance. Treat me like a child, Throw your arms around me, Oh please protect me You're in everyone I see So tell me Do you see me? Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,She felt it everyday. And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again. Her feelings she hides Her dreams she can't find She's losing her mind She's fallen behind She can't find her place She's losing her faith She's falling from grace She's all over the place. Saturday, June 13, 2009
I need you.I want you. I miss you. I love you. Caterpillar in the tree How you wonder who you'll be Can't go far but you can always dream Wish you may and wish you might Don't you worry, hold on tight I promise you there will come a day Butterfly fly away Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away Flap your wings now you can't stay Take those dreams and make them all come true You had to do it all alone Make a living, make a home Must have been as hard as it could be Wednesday, June 10, 2009
but we weren't meant to lastlet's go back, back to the beginning, back to when the earth, the sun, the stars are all aligned. Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams. Let it wash away my sanity. Friday, June 5, 2009
Young girl don't cryI'll be right here when your world starts to fall Thursday, June 4, 2009
you're haunting my every second,my every breath . Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I can hear her say "I love you" like it was yesterdayAnd I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way One day I thought I'd see her with her daddy by her side And violins would play "Here Comes The Bride" But here comes goodbye Here comes the last time Here comes the start of every sleepless night The first of every tear I'm gonna cry Here comes the pain Here comes me wishing things had never changed And she was right here in my arms tonight But here comes goodbye Why's it have to go from good to gone? Sunday, May 24, 2009
100 to 0 , it's temporary numbness. i hope it stays this way Monday, May 18, 2009
you didn't mean to fall in love?Sunday, May 17, 2009
better not to care?Tuesday, May 12, 2009
If i died today i wouldn't have had to chance to fly to parisIf i died today i wouldn't have did my best in whatever i did If i died today i wouldn't have had the chance to live in a manhatten apartment If i died today i would miss going out with friends If i died today i would miss going out with family If i died today i would miss the simple things in life that make me smile If i died today i wouldn't have the chance to fully understand who i am If i died today i wouldn't finish my task i was put on earth for If i died today i would miss the voices of the people i love If i died today i wouldn't have had the chance to say "i love you" If i died today i wouldn't have truly loved God to the maximum. If i died today i would have died with regrets . But her dreams , give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved. Sunday, May 10, 2009
hallelujah, hallelujah. hallelujah, i will praise you , in everything and whatever i do. Sunday, May 3, 2009
september, i've been waiting for you for so long.Thursday, April 30, 2009
it's a new life . another chance to start over. PS: i love you . you know that already don't you? Monday, April 27, 2009
lost . where are you?Sunday, April 26, 2009
time & time again , you're not reading the signs. i can't think of anything else. Thursday, April 23, 2009
somewhere we went wrongSunday, April 19, 2009
the vast empty space brings me peace, i don't like you talking to me, far far away , where i can be alone. lost in the ocean, amongst the skyscrapers or up high in the sky , anywhere but here please? This is not my heart, this is not my life. because you're only almost here PS: happy birthday. 1825 days of being friends, aren't i sick of you already? xD Sunday, April 12, 2009
You are my very first thought in the morning And my last at nightfall You are the love that came without warning I've made it obvious Done everything but sing it (I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong) I'm not so good with words And since you never notice The way that we belong I'll sing it in a love song live in bright lights. wear the shoes of the unfortunate. i feel different. nothings the same; we're out of the box. the leopards move too fast. & the hunters become hunted . PS: drown myself in good things. Monday, April 6, 2009
escape` im just too tired & i'm not sorry. no one's happy. nothing satisfies this hunger. i thought no one felt the way i did, luckily i've found my fellow comrade . but, both are wounded. as soldiers we try to carry on despite our setbacks, but in the end no one is strong enough. Father Father help us, send some guidance from above. Saturday, April 4, 2009
:D SHOOPERJUUNEOR. ![]() l.o.v.e their new song "sorry sorry" dance moves ftfw much? >:D okays, so this week had drama rehearsals for like 4/5 days? got our costumes yesterday , and my my. SYF is in 2 weeks time and the midyears are in a months time ): i told mrstan about my schedule & the sec 3 changes i'm having a hard time coping with , and she told me to chill out. well, i'll try to. the most scariest thing happened the other day, this guy just walked up next to me , turned his head and stared straight in my eye. wtff? screwballs . life's been rather harsh on me recently, although it has always been . just hope that things will turn out for the better :D so much things, so little time. people walk past me, i feel nothing. emptiness Monday, March 30, 2009
take me far from here. they take it away. so whats left for those who are weak? love, its a strange and funny thing . Wednesday, March 25, 2009
wish i didn't care SYNERGY NIGHT FTFW! :D Sunday, March 22, 2009
Take me somewhere where nobody gives a damn & i can just be who i am . I'm here listening to the 80s & the 90s, it's way past midnight and i'm dancing in my chair. How fucking awesome can life be if we just change how we see it. Ng out! xD Friday, March 20, 2009
The quality of the photos was killed ._. Wednesday, March 18, 2009
my legs are cramping & the painfeels like being hit on the face by a flying flat screen plasma television that has been burnt over a flame & rubbed and covered with campbell soup. Monday, March 16, 2009
![]() To live in fantasy & never understanding reality . escaping to our plastic worlds of make believe. maybe one gorgeous day , we will decide to stop and ask for help. pride betrayed. then only can we live with purpose. till that day comes, we will continue frolicking in our faecal matter. Sunday, March 15, 2009
went to four seasons hotel today ! :D it's like this posh hotel for the rich . went there after having brunch [breakfast+lunch] with family & aunt from hk . her company books her all these high-end hotels & i go there to seesee and take free soap :D haha. while crossing the road today, we kinda Jaywalked and almost got banged by a car. he horned really loudly and my primary 4 cousin did the most hilarious & unsuspected thing ever . He pointed his middle finger at the driver -.- *applause* so, then after that go walkwalk around orchard road then eat ramen then came home by bus. oh , how boring life is. Thursday, March 12, 2009
It's like telling a child how the world works.Why do things happen? because they allow us to think the unthinkable move the unmovable shake the unshakable & everything happens because it's all part of my purpose. Trails and tribulations await but none will shake me and in everything i give thanks. Hallelujah Monday, March 9, 2009
it's a damn cold nighttrying to figure out this life won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new i don't know who you are but i'm with you Sunday, March 8, 2009
" i do " so, went to jeromes & fayth's wedding yesterday congratulations to both of them and i hope you guys have a blissful & awesome marriage life together. make more children and collect all your baby bonuses :DD haha. the dinner was alright, skipped 2 dishes cause i couldnt eat them. one was some weird seafood dish complete with scallop and celery. wtflols. the other was sharks fin , which i havent eaten for 6 years already and still counting. the reason why i don't eat them? because i've seen how brutally murdered they are killed & i'm just doing my part to stop the effing murders. yes, another fact about me many don't know (: Oh, and i drank red wine yesterday and daryl said he didnt like the smell of it ._. maybe i should just stick to cranberry juice, right dev ? :DDDD <3 alrightyy. time to go shoppppiiinngggg at far east . cya guyss lttrrr . Okay, fugly photo capture by me of dev , but he's still sexy anyways Friday, March 6, 2009
i love that bastardim back from camp! it's been so fun , & i miss the place already. the instructors were so nice & i learnt how to say " my name is..." and " i love you" in spanish and in french :D i'm reallyy happy that i managed to do the high elements although i think i was shaking pretty badly up there , haha. i was coupled or 3 days and 2 nights with a friend and honestly speaking, he's the WORST 3-days-2-nights boyfriend EVER xDDD! on the second day, we had to run around doing some activities and the only highlight of them are aaron's awesome fear of ropes xD! thank you aaron for awaking all of us on the true horrors of ropes ;D!! After those days spent with my class, i really think that we've really bonded as a class & learnt more about each other. so, yeah, awesome job guys! Tuesday, March 3, 2009
tomorrow is on its way]camp's tomorrow , fuyeah. Monday, March 2, 2009
The best part of getting caught in the rain, then being locked outside the house with the extreme need to pee and eat something is going back in the house, going on youtube and watching dev patel laughTuesday, February 24, 2009
take me far awayMonday, February 23, 2009
well i felt like blabbling today . (btw, don't you just love this new skin?) recently i've been having major time splits of dejavu (i don't know what that meant but it sounds cool) it's like 'hey, wasn't i here before' or 'how come that seems so darn familiar' ya know? and dejavu is kinda weird yet kinda cool at the same time. like for example yesterday when i was coming home and sitting at the busstop and this car drove past and i said, " hmmm....that car ..." and i thought it was some relative or some of those distant cousins whom you only seem during chinese new year. haha. okaayy, this is a kinda short post but yeah it beats those one-liners i usually put. po, po, po, po, poke her face~ Saturday, February 21, 2009
hallelujahi just want a change of scenery Sunday, February 15, 2009
Happy valentines day !<3[though i'm one day late X:]went to eli's house and church yesterday. church wasnt as awkward as i thought it was, and i met a new friend, roxabel (: nothing much to say , cause i'm too upset that i lost my file and a maths textbook ,and common test is in 2 days time! [shoutout] C, Jiayou on making the wrong right. I'll have your back through everything and support you from singapore. make me proud or else .... xD the other 3 musketeers, Hahhaah you guys all suck *points finger and laughs* xDDDDDDD *does victory dance* Friday, February 13, 2009
: Just a minor setback. -everything will turn out fine, hopefully. Friday the 13th, you've killed me once again. Thursday, February 12, 2009
the miles seem to get longer Monday, February 9, 2009
nothing is the same anymoreThursday, February 5, 2009
tone life downTuesday, February 3, 2009
sooooo i'm doing a shout out :D try to guess who's who . ^^ R, KOOOORR ! you seem so angry these few days judging from your msn nicknames ): hope everything's fine . yesyes, it's been 4 years already. promise that you'll remember me for life alright :D the dead angelz will live on forever! RAWRRRRR!!! J, i never seem to be able to figure you out :/ (cause you're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no) haha. you're still a mystery O: SPLITZO! N, my pebble and highlighter lover. we've laughed over redundant and really random situations together . haven't talked to you in awhile since you left SHPS, come visit real soon :D [PS: i didn't know you cosplayed and i hope your brother is still hot] xDDDD V, how was your trip to sunny singapore? :D glad that we could get together and eat lunch the other day. pretty girl, take care of yourself in Shanghai, be careful of................................................[lucius]! XD K, i don't know where to even start. all i've got to say about you is that i hope you will keep the memories locked away and safe. be nice to the girls in your class alright? ^^ have fun in life. B, i havent recieved my present yet ): even when you're not here, i hear all the stories about you from my friends. ahh, your promise, i hope you'll stick to it. see you in a few years time :D A[F], *throws you a jacket* heard it's really cold there :D i bet the girls are putting on more make-up to hide what the cold has worn out. poor thing , hehe . Z, ultimate emo ever , dont fret ! have fun in college , don't pass out there ! [i'm getting a bloody headache , but i want to continue this D:] R, run baby run don't ever look back! Y[A], where's xy D:< ily, and no, paris is still perfectly fine. xD D, DUDDDDDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. don't get into fights anymore lah. sorry i always dont want to go out or call ): ily kay. jiayou on winning over that lady of yours xD C, where'd you go? i miss you so ): partyy animall, don't get drunk and do something that will majorly upset me okay D: study hard even though you think you can't O: remember to not even spent a SINGLE CENT from your angbao money cause it'll be used for something even better later on. promise xD i promise i've been a good girl :3 E,C2; haha you guys. i'm having a really bad headache lahh ): i'll write a seperate shoutout for yyou guys another day. it'll be more special also , hehe :D Monday, February 2, 2009
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Tuesday, January 24, 2012
When empty meaningless words fill, feelings with drain, I don't know anymore, I don't want to feel like I'm lying to you when I say it every night . They say you'll know it when you know it but I thought I knew it and it became a deep bruise, a scar. How cab I trust myself I feel so confused. I wonder but I cry when I think of doing it. Do you think its just a lack of colourful promises ? It's nit pretty anymore and I don't wanna talk to you anymore because it gets me so angry and annoyed all the time, thinking you never think of anything as serious . Why drag the end when the end is near. I don't want to be with you tonight but as I think of it I don't want to see you hurt ever. But just sometimes god I hate you so much, stop touching me. I pray night after night this would change with the New sun.Tuesday, December 13, 2011
humans ?i wish all of you saw how fortunate you are how they stay for you regardless how you push them away for puny reasons but like you, i did all those except i became like candy wrapper Wednesday, October 19, 2011
and like how eventually friends would leave us, i bid you farewell, old friend. I will almost miss you and maybe we'll meet again, maybe not but for now, i'm fine without you although i feel empty and unlike myself i know its for the better youll be fragmented memories haunt if you must but never stay because as much as im trying to believe i dont need you Tuesday, September 20, 2011
i have no tear ducts :)Wednesday, August 31, 2011
why arent you listening
why arent you listening stop it stop im not fat seriously fuck you, stop it stop stop stop stop stop it please youre disgusting i dont want to hurt you just stop please Tuesday, June 14, 2011
it feels so good herewhere youve been trying so hard to get me out away from myself and this habit i just wanna try it i already have it and i just wanna know how it feels like i wont tell anyone and it will only be one Tuesday, June 7, 2011
baby girl, this is from the past mel to the future mel dont ever give up on anything because look at yourself how much youve gone through and what are all those compared to what youre facing now youve been through it before this is nothing you're truly amazing, beautiful , and no one can say anything to change any of that ask God for help he's there forever there nothing can change that i love you mel iwould love you even if you dont love you nothing can take this love away nothing so please be strong no more tears no more Sunday, April 3, 2011
i gotta work on my smileThursday, March 31, 2011
fuck you melreally you're a fucking piece of shit i hate you for always feeling so fucked dickhead stop thinking about everything under the damm sun Tuesday, March 29, 2011
i like thislistening to john mayer when no one's awake thinking about the city lights and nothing else Thursday, March 24, 2011
how can it lastwhen i'm afraid to tell you how i really feel because you turn angry and frustrated at me when i do? bitter tears that really are unnecessary but i'm sorry because this is who i am Wednesday, March 23, 2011
insecurity and hate i hate how insecure i am i am imperfect i am nothing to this world i cannot do anything right i screw up everything everyone else is better why would anyone be my friend fine be angry at me be irritated by me but really havent you felt this before havent you ever felt inferior call me a girl, call it menstruation things that i havent told you how everynight i feel like crying myself to sleep no , i do not want any attention because i dont want to have any friends listening is tiring i hate the human race , because everyone else is selfish i am selfish i hate myself and everyone around me why the hell are we like that immature cunts youre not even funny have heart my nose stings my eyes feel hot it will sting it will sting theres too much noise im writing with my conscience closed im trusting you as my heart i dont even love the people i love mad please call me crazy it will give me an excuse to keep feeling this way i know you are angry i know you are frustrated i feel that way too but please understand me why am i this way i dont know i only know i hate this i cant see its blurred just go just go dont leave me here im sorry but its not my fault i cant help it i can smell wood i can touch cold i want to stretch my arms hear the breaking of fibre box pop i am not beautiful i am ugly i have nothing of worth call me lousy because i am yes yes yes i will sleep like this like a old friend and a secret affair and i dont even love the people i love
Thursday, March 17, 2011
a disability you forced me to learnhow is the rain? can it harden like it does? silver cold walls against pushing,pulsing, red stones always lie because we know we can but i have heart feelings wash secretly, i hate breathing not like it has never crossed our minds migration is always nice biting strips would love to crawl on wrists yes, silence is golden Tuesday, March 15, 2011
hush now babyits time to go to sleep mommy and daddy have counted all the sheep hush now baby dont you cry mommy and daddy always by your side Sunday, February 27, 2011
I feel like crying when i talk to you.Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I'm sorry.Thursday, November 18, 2010
Its more than any word could explainover and over i fall into your ocean eyes and with each time we kiss it will run through every vein in me i imagine - a dark cool air gently caressing my walls seeping under each of my doors filling me from within We are forbidden lovers I need you but i dont love you, i will never, ever love you but i know you will always wait wait for me to fall Wednesday, November 10, 2010
hello. my name is melody. i am a happy girl. kthxbai. Friday, October 22, 2010
Oh God , please not here again.Wednesday, October 20, 2010
until my knuckles bleed,until tables overturn, until chairs hit the fans, i can't seem find any other way to get rid of this feeling i want to scream, i want to cry till i can't breathe i want to go back to the evil in my head so i can feel comforted its been so long, i've missed it but i know i cannot go back Sunday, October 17, 2010
we say we'll remember each other when the time has come for us to leave, but we all know that's just a broken promise because life will never allow us to live in the past , we have to keep moving forward even if a friend stumbles it's cruel and painful to see you guys go when i know that this just isn't right my best wishes to everyone who's taking their O levels in a week's time, put in everything, everything, thats left alive in you and finish this obstacle knowing you've given all with nothing left for this exams ♥ Monday, October 11, 2010
strangers in this house, we're merely bound by name. you don't know who i've grown up to be, it's just hi and bye everyday. does it kill you to smile. will it hurt if you laugh. you knew this meant something to me, so i can't help but feel cheated .but maybe i'm being a bitch. unreasonable and insensitive to our needs as a family. stop slamming the doors. it's too much noise. this sucks .Thursday, October 7, 2010
i just want to be with youWednesday, October 6, 2010
Love, you take what's mine and broken, and in turn, give me your heart to care you're everything i never imagined to have and i stare blankly at you it's not that i don't want you but you're too good of a blessing and i ask myself if you're really mine to keep call it insecurity, call it foolishness but it's hard to not to be afraid when you have happiness in your hands. Saturday, October 2, 2010
we are children wanting to grow up too quickly 'Love' misunderstood, misused, thrown around like It means cents Monday, September 20, 2010
Acquaintant, I don't know you. You , are a dream. The more i say , the less you thought you knew. Strangers , interlaced, I don't know you. My perfect stranger, tell me you are not just another guest I'm a refugee, seeking love in your heart, I don't want to belong anywhere else. Sunday, September 19, 2010
You never come to visit anymore, Old friend. You used to be the only one i could seek shelter in. But things change, I've met someone amazing, someone i'd trust to treat me right. Haha, Old friend, I bid you good fucking riddance . Friday, August 27, 2010
Lately, i've just been all over the place,insecure, lonely and angry. Just a mess i try to hide i'm sorry to the people who've had to go through this with me you ignorant bastard, join them if you like, you're better off with them anyways. just know, you'll learn one day the hard way that pleasure isn't everything. i've loved you unconditionally, sacrificed, gone through your breakups, stayed with you while you slowly killed yourself but still i never feel you appreciating one second of my existence my strength, my support you held me , your love, it lured me out of my evil thoughts, i am forever grateful to your kindness. i'll try my best to love you with all my heart but please accept me as an incomplete person and promise me you won't run away i look into the mirror and i see you my deepest fear, i swear i'll never be like you, i'd kill myself . Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Have i really changed that much, till strangers tell me i dont smile as often? i pray for Hell to take back the past, i pray for God to please help me move on. But still , i make the same mistakes even if my head screams for me to stop. I hate you. I hate you so much. I don't understand why, it's so hard to keep up. It's been so hard trying to maintain bonds. I look at love and open doors but i don't have the energy Friends, all ever willing, waiting to support, but it's just too tiring to talk , too tiring to keep awake. I never really saw the point in keeping friends anyway, it always seemed like too much effort, and then they go to waste. wait for me
Monday, August 16, 2010
There is something about the haunted, that is beautiful beyond words. how slippery are our tongues, so quick to utter judgements to the different but when the feeling takes it's turn and possesses you, you will know how it feels, to love the hate to admire the broken to marry the unwilling i cannot tell you how i feel, when life has merely been a passing wind to me, i await and anticipate the day i meet my maker, i have so many questions to ask. He will take me in His arms like no one else has ever did, He will tell me He had loved me all the while, and has never forsaken me, He will tell me it was alright to have made mistakes on Earth, because this is not where i'm meant to be, He will tell me that I am of meaning to him, and till that day, He will watch me from above with loving eyes until i return home to Him again. Sunday, August 15, 2010
i dont want to disappoint myself anymore, please tell me it is okay, okay to have made mistakes in the past, okay that i am not the prettiest, the smartest, the most caring, i am insecure. i don't know how to chase my dreams because i don't believe in myself i love being by myself , the human race disgusts me why are we so weak, shallow, immature, cheap. i like being out at night, seeing the city lights bleeding on the roads the cars , their headlights, so close to me, it makes my blood run pure , pleasure. i dream of the day where i can walk these roads alone with no one else but myself its not that i don't love you , i think i do - but i cant trust anyone, anything but the voice in my head it has been the only person who has stood with us through each second. old friend, you know i can never leave you. but have mercy, please, i beg of you, let me make this life worthwhile. solitude is bliss
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Truth be, I would much rather watch the city skyline by myself than spent my night out partying Truth be, I would much rather spend my time alone than hanging out with friends I don't mind being alone, it really isn't that hard. I have a friend, he lives inside of me, he knows everything - the past, the hurt, my loves, my hopes he helps me to keep sane and talks to me whenever no one else does he tells me to leave the past and run, run, run, he says one day i will find my identity, it will be Just like everything i ever imagined it to be, it will make sense. I will sprint, I will dive, I will crawl, Anything, anything to find myself. I believe that everyone was born good, family background, friends, circumstances, they all don't mean shit. It was pure Choice that got us where we are. Friday, July 9, 2010
Angst [æŋst (German) aŋst]n A feeling of anxiety or apprehension often accompanied by depression 1. an acute but nonspecific sense of anxiety or remorse 2. (Philosophy) (in Existentialist philosophy) the dread caused by man's awareness that his future is not determined but must be freely chosen [German] It will never matter what i do, where i do it, or who will be affected by it. I will always disappoint someone out there , and that's something I'd never be able to change. Have I been been shortchanging myself all this while or were the expectations made of me inaccurate and unachievable? A big , big heart but easily taken advantaged and influenced by. Talented with so much potential but ill-disciplined and lazy. Key figure of the club but doesn't want to step up and take the lead. I feel stupid, blind, scared, intimidated, afraid and regretful. She says they've been supporting me by throwing opportunities in my face but i've been running away from them - and reality . She says i'm no longer who she thought i was three years ago, cheery and hopeful. Now ? Angsty and restless. What have i been doing. How can I save myself. I know i've made too many mistakes, lost too many friends and lost my sanity all in the short span of a year but you don't know how hard it has been fighting the war inside let alone face the tough world outside. The human mind is fragile. More scary than any supernatural power and more beautiful than any matter. It will not resist plunging into the deepest corners of your mind. It will love depression, entertain suicide thoughts, and stand in awe of evil things. But it can, love selflessly and unconditionally , persue good and healthy deeds and make each and everyday you wake up seem like a blessing and a opportunity. I need God. depression
Monday, July 5, 2010
its been awhile my old friend, today, i licked your skin and it reminded me of how lovely you are. you are beautiful, you are captivating, i had buried you so deep in my lies, i fooled myself you weren't here anymore. but you will always be there, here and everywhere as long as i breathe have you learnt to love? no, because you haven't killed yourself. you have seduced my friend, my family, do you not feel guilt? i can't keep away from you, you are like the joy and estacy from kissing. but you just make me want to kill myself, my heart, filled of regret and anguish . i want to kill you , it would be a sacrifice worth. no,don't look at me with your eyes, i don't want to touch you. take back your words, i'm not insane, you are. i don't love you , i never did . get out and never come back. i will follow you wherever you go
Monday, June 28, 2010
Run and laugh, keep this up and you'll forget the past, nobody will ever know of it again, they'll keep it as hidden as the pain Saturday, June 19, 2010
i forgot how sweet it tastedFriday, June 18, 2010
i hope it doesnt happen all over again.Friday, June 11, 2010
i love looking back at my past and feel totally comforted by the simple things that had made me so happy :)Thursday, June 10, 2010
sometimes you feel sad for no bloody reason and you can't do nothing to get out of it even though you so badly want to . i think it's time to sleep.Tuesday, June 8, 2010
no it was never about the worldit was always about me i am a special child i need your attention, i need your love. never put me down because i wont know how to handle it the government , they don't care about the bullies and the magazines all of you you all look the same you are just copies my head hurts no one told me sleep was this good. Monday, June 7, 2010
God > family > friends what doesnt kill you makes you stronger . Saturday, June 5, 2010
no more mistakes, cause in your eyes i'd like to stay. what do you do when everything you thought worthy about you is taken away -a pretty face,a slim figure. a good reputation. maybe she's never been called ugly. maybe he's never been called fat. and maybe the sea that would part for her now kills her with each wave that pushes her aside. sometimes i think i'm crazy. when i see celebrities all glamed out and perfect. oh, how much i would give to have what they have-sometimes i get lost. i don't think we see what we're doing and maybe i'm just thinking too much. but give acceptance a chance and maybe everyday will feel that bit brighter. Friday, June 4, 2010
cupid didn't shoot me with an arrow, he hit me in the face with a ball. good job. Thursday, June 3, 2010
if i ever saw a shooting star, i'd wish for a happily ever after.if i ever saw a shooting star, i'd wish for happiness for everyone i love, but i didn't see a shooting star, It was a plane on fire. Wednesday, June 2, 2010
everyone has those days when all you want to do is turn on the air conditioner, turn off the phone, shut the door, eat a bowl of cereals and watch OKto. No?i miss you. Monday, May 31, 2010
less is good .i've been keeping my dreams unbroken didn't i tell you, i'll stay for good. oh sleep, i need you now. Friday, May 28, 2010
please don't make me cry .Wednesday, May 19, 2010
hearts recycled but never savedSunday, February 7, 2010
what the fuck is wrong with usMonday, January 18, 2010
the thought of you i fear, the thought of you drives me up the fucking wall. I don't want to die
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Oh God, spare us a minute or two There's so much I've yet to see, There's so much I've yet to do. Highlighters and cigarettes
Saturday, January 2, 2010
You left me first, so I can't leave.Sunday, October 25, 2009
Let depression kick in.Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I've tried to climb your stepsI've tried to chase you down I've tried to tame this mind Thursday, October 15, 2009
(: Life is good.Tuesday, August 18, 2009
what to do when you're blindSaturday, August 1, 2009
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() i come undone. baby, you make murder feel good. look what you've done to me. Thursday, July 16, 2009
you'll always be the one i know i would never forget.Keep these memories, locked up safe and secure. Ten years from today, she'll walk down the aisle, lover's hand in hers, you promised you would be there. Sitting there in the pews of the church, or the one who would lift her veil, you promised you would be there. Saturday, July 4, 2009
baby, i'm free falling into your arms.won't you catch me? Saturday, June 27, 2009
with 16 seconds left on the clock, he's on your mind . i'm losing you and it's effortless Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Of all the words, you had to say 'goodbye,'Friday, June 19, 2009
This is the deep and dying breath of this love that we've been working on Can't seem to hold you like I want to, so I can feel you in my arms. Nobody's gonna come and save us we pulled too many false alarms. I was the one you always dreamed of, you were the one i tried to draw. How dare you say it's nothing to me, Baby, you're the only light I ever saw. There's something about you, I just can't quite figure out. Everything you do is beautiful, everything you do is right, so don't let go of us tonight, Love's not always black and white. Oh, Haven't I always loved you? I would change the world, if I had a chance. Treat me like a child, Throw your arms around me, Oh please protect me You're in everyone I see So tell me Do you see me? Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,She felt it everyday. And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again. Her feelings she hides Her dreams she can't find She's losing her mind She's fallen behind She can't find her place She's losing her faith She's falling from grace She's all over the place. Saturday, June 13, 2009
I need you.I want you. I miss you. I love you. Caterpillar in the tree How you wonder who you'll be Can't go far but you can always dream Wish you may and wish you might Don't you worry, hold on tight I promise you there will come a day Butterfly fly away Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away Flap your wings now you can't stay Take those dreams and make them all come true You had to do it all alone Make a living, make a home Must have been as hard as it could be Wednesday, June 10, 2009
but we weren't meant to lastlet's go back, back to the beginning, back to when the earth, the sun, the stars are all aligned. Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams. Let it wash away my sanity. Friday, June 5, 2009
Young girl don't cryI'll be right here when your world starts to fall Thursday, June 4, 2009
you're haunting my every second,my every breath . Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I can hear her say "I love you" like it was yesterdayAnd I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way One day I thought I'd see her with her daddy by her side And violins would play "Here Comes The Bride" But here comes goodbye Here comes the last time Here comes the start of every sleepless night The first of every tear I'm gonna cry Here comes the pain Here comes me wishing things had never changed And she was right here in my arms tonight But here comes goodbye Why's it have to go from good to gone? Sunday, May 24, 2009
100 to 0 , it's temporary numbness. i hope it stays this way Monday, May 18, 2009
you didn't mean to fall in love?Sunday, May 17, 2009
better not to care?Tuesday, May 12, 2009
If i died today i wouldn't have had to chance to fly to parisIf i died today i wouldn't have did my best in whatever i did If i died today i wouldn't have had the chance to live in a manhatten apartment If i died today i would miss going out with friends If i died today i would miss going out with family If i died today i would miss the simple things in life that make me smile If i died today i wouldn't have the chance to fully understand who i am If i died today i wouldn't finish my task i was put on earth for If i died today i would miss the voices of the people i love If i died today i wouldn't have had the chance to say "i love you" If i died today i wouldn't have truly loved God to the maximum. If i died today i would have died with regrets . But her dreams , give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved. Sunday, May 10, 2009
hallelujah, hallelujah. hallelujah, i will praise you , in everything and whatever i do. Sunday, May 3, 2009
september, i've been waiting for you for so long.Thursday, April 30, 2009
it's a new life . another chance to start over. PS: i love you . you know that already don't you? Monday, April 27, 2009
lost . where are you?Sunday, April 26, 2009
time & time again , you're not reading the signs. i can't think of anything else. Thursday, April 23, 2009
somewhere we went wrongSunday, April 19, 2009
the vast empty space brings me peace, i don't like you talking to me, far far away , where i can be alone. lost in the ocean, amongst the skyscrapers or up high in the sky , anywhere but here please? This is not my heart, this is not my life. because you're only almost here PS: happy birthday. 1825 days of being friends, aren't i sick of you already? xD Sunday, April 12, 2009
You are my very first thought in the morning And my last at nightfall You are the love that came without warning I've made it obvious Done everything but sing it (I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong) I'm not so good with words And since you never notice The way that we belong I'll sing it in a love song live in bright lights. wear the shoes of the unfortunate. i feel different. nothings the same; we're out of the box. the leopards move too fast. & the hunters become hunted . PS: drown myself in good things. Monday, April 6, 2009
escape` im just too tired & i'm not sorry. no one's happy. nothing satisfies this hunger. i thought no one felt the way i did, luckily i've found my fellow comrade . but, both are wounded. as soldiers we try to carry on despite our setbacks, but in the end no one is strong enough. Father Father help us, send some guidance from above. Saturday, April 4, 2009
:D SHOOPERJUUNEOR. ![]() l.o.v.e their new song "sorry sorry" dance moves ftfw much? >:D okays, so this week had drama rehearsals for like 4/5 days? got our costumes yesterday , and my my. SYF is in 2 weeks time and the midyears are in a months time ): i told mrstan about my schedule & the sec 3 changes i'm having a hard time coping with , and she told me to chill out. well, i'll try to. the most scariest thing happened the other day, this guy just walked up next to me , turned his head and stared straight in my eye. wtff? screwballs . life's been rather harsh on me recently, although it has always been . just hope that things will turn out for the better :D so much things, so little time. people walk past me, i feel nothing. emptiness Monday, March 30, 2009
take me far from here. they take it away. so whats left for those who are weak? love, its a strange and funny thing . Wednesday, March 25, 2009
wish i didn't care SYNERGY NIGHT FTFW! :D Sunday, March 22, 2009
Take me somewhere where nobody gives a damn & i can just be who i am . I'm here listening to the 80s & the 90s, it's way past midnight and i'm dancing in my chair. How fucking awesome can life be if we just change how we see it. Ng out! xD Friday, March 20, 2009
The quality of the photos was killed ._. Wednesday, March 18, 2009
my legs are cramping & the painfeels like being hit on the face by a flying flat screen plasma television that has been burnt over a flame & rubbed and covered with campbell soup. Monday, March 16, 2009
![]() To live in fantasy & never understanding reality . escaping to our plastic worlds of make believe. maybe one gorgeous day , we will decide to stop and ask for help. pride betrayed. then only can we live with purpose. till that day comes, we will continue frolicking in our faecal matter. Sunday, March 15, 2009
went to four seasons hotel today ! :D it's like this posh hotel for the rich . went there after having brunch [breakfast+lunch] with family & aunt from hk . her company books her all these high-end hotels & i go there to seesee and take free soap :D haha. while crossing the road today, we kinda Jaywalked and almost got banged by a car. he horned really loudly and my primary 4 cousin did the most hilarious & unsuspected thing ever . He pointed his middle finger at the driver -.- *applause* so, then after that go walkwalk around orchard road then eat ramen then came home by bus. oh , how boring life is. Thursday, March 12, 2009
It's like telling a child how the world works.Why do things happen? because they allow us to think the unthinkable move the unmovable shake the unshakable & everything happens because it's all part of my purpose. Trails and tribulations await but none will shake me and in everything i give thanks. Hallelujah Monday, March 9, 2009
it's a damn cold nighttrying to figure out this life won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new i don't know who you are but i'm with you Sunday, March 8, 2009
" i do " so, went to jeromes & fayth's wedding yesterday congratulations to both of them and i hope you guys have a blissful & awesome marriage life together. make more children and collect all your baby bonuses :DD haha. the dinner was alright, skipped 2 dishes cause i couldnt eat them. one was some weird seafood dish complete with scallop and celery. wtflols. the other was sharks fin , which i havent eaten for 6 years already and still counting. the reason why i don't eat them? because i've seen how brutally murdered they are killed & i'm just doing my part to stop the effing murders. yes, another fact about me many don't know (: Oh, and i drank red wine yesterday and daryl said he didnt like the smell of it ._. maybe i should just stick to cranberry juice, right dev ? :DDDD <3 alrightyy. time to go shoppppiiinngggg at far east . cya guyss lttrrr . Okay, fugly photo capture by me of dev , but he's still sexy anyways Friday, March 6, 2009
i love that bastardim back from camp! it's been so fun , & i miss the place already. the instructors were so nice & i learnt how to say " my name is..." and " i love you" in spanish and in french :D i'm reallyy happy that i managed to do the high elements although i think i was shaking pretty badly up there , haha. i was coupled or 3 days and 2 nights with a friend and honestly speaking, he's the WORST 3-days-2-nights boyfriend EVER xDDD! on the second day, we had to run around doing some activities and the only highlight of them are aaron's awesome fear of ropes xD! thank you aaron for awaking all of us on the true horrors of ropes ;D!! After those days spent with my class, i really think that we've really bonded as a class & learnt more about each other. so, yeah, awesome job guys! Tuesday, March 3, 2009
tomorrow is on its way]camp's tomorrow , fuyeah. Monday, March 2, 2009
The best part of getting caught in the rain, then being locked outside the house with the extreme need to pee and eat something is going back in the house, going on youtube and watching dev patel laughTuesday, February 24, 2009
take me far awayMonday, February 23, 2009
well i felt like blabbling today . (btw, don't you just love this new skin?) recently i've been having major time splits of dejavu (i don't know what that meant but it sounds cool) it's like 'hey, wasn't i here before' or 'how come that seems so darn familiar' ya know? and dejavu is kinda weird yet kinda cool at the same time. like for example yesterday when i was coming home and sitting at the busstop and this car drove past and i said, " hmmm....that car ..." and i thought it was some relative or some of those distant cousins whom you only seem during chinese new year. haha. okaayy, this is a kinda short post but yeah it beats those one-liners i usually put. po, po, po, po, poke her face~ Saturday, February 21, 2009
hallelujahi just want a change of scenery Sunday, February 15, 2009
Happy valentines day !<3[though i'm one day late X:]went to eli's house and church yesterday. church wasnt as awkward as i thought it was, and i met a new friend, roxabel (: nothing much to say , cause i'm too upset that i lost my file and a maths textbook ,and common test is in 2 days time! [shoutout] C, Jiayou on making the wrong right. I'll have your back through everything and support you from singapore. make me proud or else .... xD the other 3 musketeers, Hahhaah you guys all suck *points finger and laughs* xDDDDDDD *does victory dance* Friday, February 13, 2009
: Just a minor setback. -everything will turn out fine, hopefully. Friday the 13th, you've killed me once again. Thursday, February 12, 2009
the miles seem to get longer Monday, February 9, 2009
nothing is the same anymoreThursday, February 5, 2009
tone life downTuesday, February 3, 2009
sooooo i'm doing a shout out :D try to guess who's who . ^^ R, KOOOORR ! you seem so angry these few days judging from your msn nicknames ): hope everything's fine . yesyes, it's been 4 years already. promise that you'll remember me for life alright :D the dead angelz will live on forever! RAWRRRRR!!! J, i never seem to be able to figure you out :/ (cause you're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no) haha. you're still a mystery O: SPLITZO! N, my pebble and highlighter lover. we've laughed over redundant and really random situations together . haven't talked to you in awhile since you left SHPS, come visit real soon :D [PS: i didn't know you cosplayed and i hope your brother is still hot] xDDDD V, how was your trip to sunny singapore? :D glad that we could get together and eat lunch the other day. pretty girl, take care of yourself in Shanghai, be careful of................................................[lucius]! XD K, i don't know where to even start. all i've got to say about you is that i hope you will keep the memories locked away and safe. be nice to the girls in your class alright? ^^ have fun in life. B, i havent recieved my present yet ): even when you're not here, i hear all the stories about you from my friends. ahh, your promise, i hope you'll stick to it. see you in a few years time :D A[F], *throws you a jacket* heard it's really cold there :D i bet the girls are putting on more make-up to hide what the cold has worn out. poor thing , hehe . Z, ultimate emo ever , dont fret ! have fun in college , don't pass out there ! [i'm getting a bloody headache , but i want to continue this D:] R, run baby run don't ever look back! Y[A], where's xy D:< ily, and no, paris is still perfectly fine. xD D, DUDDDDDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. don't get into fights anymore lah. sorry i always dont want to go out or call ): ily kay. jiayou on winning over that lady of yours xD C, where'd you go? i miss you so ): partyy animall, don't get drunk and do something that will majorly upset me okay D: study hard even though you think you can't O: remember to not even spent a SINGLE CENT from your angbao money cause it'll be used for something even better later on. promise xD i promise i've been a good girl :3 E,C2; haha you guys. i'm having a really bad headache lahh ): i'll write a seperate shoutout for yyou guys another day. it'll be more special also , hehe :D Monday, February 2, 2009
yay minimalism!
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