Tuesday, January 24, 2012
When empty meaningless words fill, feelings with drain, I don't know anymore, I don't want to feel like I'm lying to you when I say it every night . They say you'll know it when you know it but I thought I knew it and it became a deep bruise, a scar. How cab I trust myself I feel so confused. I wonder but I cry when I think of doing it. Do you think its just a lack of colourful promises ? It's nit pretty anymore and I don't wanna talk to you anymore because it gets me so angry and annoyed all the time, thinking you never think of anything as serious . Why drag the end when the end is near. I don't want to be with you tonight but as I think of it I don't want to see you hurt ever. But just sometimes god I hate you so much, stop touching me. I pray night after night this would change with the New sun.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011
humans ?

i wish all of you saw how fortunate you are
how they stay for you regardless
how you push them away for puny reasons
but like you, i did all those
except i became like candy wrapper

Wednesday, October 19, 2011
and like how eventually friends would leave us,
i bid you farewell, old friend.
I will almost miss you
and maybe we'll meet again, maybe not
but for now, i'm fine without you
although i feel empty and unlike myself
i know its for the better
youll be fragmented memories
haunt
if you must
but never stay
because as much as im trying to believe
i dont need you

Tuesday, September 20, 2011
i have no tear ducts :)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011
why arent you listening
why arent you listening
stop it
stop
im not fat
seriously fuck you, stop it
stop stop
stop stop
stop it please
youre disgusting
i dont want to hurt you
just stop
please

Tuesday, June 14, 2011
it feels so good here
where youve been trying so hard to get me out
away from myself and this habit

i just wanna try it
i already have it
and i just wanna know how it feels like
i wont tell anyone
and it will only be one

Tuesday, June 7, 2011


baby girl,
this is from the past mel
to the future mel

dont ever give up on anything
because look at yourself
how much youve gone through
and what are all those compared to what
youre facing now
youve been through it before
this is nothing
you're truly amazing,
beautiful ,
and no one can say anything to change any of that
ask God for help
he's there
forever there
nothing can change that
i love you mel
iwould love you even if you dont love you
nothing can take this love away
nothing
so please
be strong
no more tears no more

Sunday, April 3, 2011
i gotta work on my smile

Thursday, March 31, 2011
fuck you mel
really you're a fucking piece of shit
i hate you for always feeling so fucked
dickhead stop thinking about everything under the damm sun

Tuesday, March 29, 2011
i like this
listening to john mayer when no one's awake
thinking about the city lights
and nothing else

Thursday, March 24, 2011
how can it last
when i'm afraid to tell you how i really feel
because you turn angry and frustrated at me when i do?
bitter tears that really are unnecessary
but i'm sorry because this is who i am

Wednesday, March 23, 2011
insecurity and hate
i hate how insecure i am
i am imperfect
i am nothing to this world
i cannot do anything right
i screw up everything
everyone else is better
why would anyone be my friend
fine
be angry at me
be irritated by me
but really havent you felt this before
havent you ever felt inferior
call me a girl, call it menstruation
things that i havent told you
how everynight i feel like crying myself to sleep
no , i do not want any attention
because i dont want to have any friends
listening is tiring
i hate the human race , because everyone else is selfish
i am selfish
i hate myself and everyone around me
why the hell are we like that
immature cunts
youre not even funny
have heart
my nose stings
my eyes feel hot
it will sting
it will sting
theres too much noise
im writing with my conscience closed
im trusting you as my heart
i dont even love the people i love
mad
please call me crazy
it will give me an excuse to keep feeling this way
i know you are angry i know you are frustrated
i feel that way too
but please understand me
why am i this way i dont know
i only know i hate this
i cant see its blurred
just go just go
dont leave me here
im sorry but its not my fault
i cant help it
i can smell wood
i can touch cold
i want to stretch my arms hear the breaking of fibre
box
pop
i am not beautiful i am ugly i have nothing of worth
call me lousy because i am
yes yes yes i will sleep like this
like a old friend and a secret affair

and i dont even love the people i love
Thursday, March 17, 2011
a disability you forced me to learn
how is the rain?
can it harden like it does?
silver cold walls against pushing,pulsing,
red
stones always lie because we know we can
but i have heart
feelings wash
secretly, i hate breathing
not like it has never crossed our minds
migration is always nice
biting strips would love to crawl on wrists
yes,
silence is golden

Tuesday, March 15, 2011
hush now baby
its time to go to sleep
mommy and daddy
have counted all the sheep
hush now baby
dont you cry
mommy and daddy
always by
your side

Sunday, February 27, 2011
I feel like crying when i talk to you.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I'm sorry.

Thursday, November 18, 2010
Its more than any word could explain
over and over
i fall into your ocean eyes
and with each time we kiss
it will run through every vein in me
i imagine - a dark cool air
gently caressing my walls
seeping under each of my doors
filling me from within
We are forbidden lovers
I need you
but i dont love you,
i will never, ever love you
but i know you will always
wait
wait for me to fall

Wednesday, November 10, 2010
hello.
my name is melody.
i am a happy girl.
kthxbai.

Friday, October 22, 2010
Oh God , please not here again.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010
until my knuckles bleed,
until tables overturn,
until chairs hit the fans,
i can't seem find any other way to get rid of this feeling
i want to scream, i want to cry till i can't breathe
i want to go back to the evil in my head so i can feel comforted
its been so long, i've missed it
but i know i cannot go back

Sunday, October 17, 2010
we say we'll remember each other when the time has come for us to leave,
but we all know that's just a broken promise
because life will never allow us to live in the past ,
we have to keep moving forward even if a friend stumbles
it's cruel and painful to see you guys go when i know
that this just isn't right
my best wishes to everyone who's taking their O levels in a week's time,
put in everything, everything, thats left alive in you and finish
this obstacle knowing you've given all with nothing left for this exams

Monday, October 11, 2010
strangers in this house, we're merely bound by name. you don't know who i've grown up to be, it's just hi and bye everyday. does it kill you to smile. will it hurt if you laugh. you knew this meant something to me, so i can't help but feel cheated .but maybe i'm being a bitch. unreasonable and insensitive to our needs as a family. stop slamming the doors. it's too much noise. this sucks .

Thursday, October 7, 2010
i just want to be with you

Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Love,
you take what's mine and broken,
and in turn, give me your heart to care
you're everything i never imagined to have
and i stare blankly at you

it's not that i don't want you
but you're too good of a blessing
and i ask myself if you're really mine to keep
call it insecurity, call it foolishness
but it's hard to not to be afraid when you
have happiness in your hands.

Saturday, October 2, 2010
we are children
wanting to grow up too quickly
'Love'
misunderstood, misused,
thrown around like It means cents

Monday, September 20, 2010
Acquaintant,
I don't know you.
You ,
are a dream.
The more i say ,
the less you thought you knew.
Strangers ,
interlaced,
I don't know you.
My perfect stranger,
tell me you are not just another
guest
I'm a refugee,
seeking love in your heart,
I don't want to belong anywhere else.

Sunday, September 19, 2010
You never come to visit anymore,
Old friend.
You used to be the only one i could
seek shelter in.
But things change,
I've met someone amazing,
someone i'd trust to treat me right.
Haha,
Old friend,
I bid you good fucking riddance .

Friday, August 27, 2010
Lately, i've just been all over the place,
insecure, lonely and angry.
Just a mess i try to hide
i'm sorry to the people who've had to go through
this with me

you ignorant bastard,
join them if you like,
you're better off with them anyways.
just know,
you'll learn one day the hard way
that pleasure isn't everything.

i've loved you unconditionally,
sacrificed, gone through your breakups,
stayed with you while you slowly killed yourself
but still i never feel
you appreciating one second of my existence

my strength, my support
you held me , your love,
it lured me out of my evil
thoughts,
i am forever grateful to your kindness.
i'll try my best to love you with all my heart
but please accept me as an incomplete person
and promise me you won't run away

i look into the mirror and i see you
my deepest fear,
i swear i'll never be like you,
i'd kill myself .

Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Have i really changed that much,
till strangers tell me i dont smile as often?
i pray for Hell to take back the past,
i pray for God to please help me move on.
But still , i make the same mistakes
even if my head screams for me to stop.
I hate you.
I hate you so much.

I don't understand why, it's so hard to keep up.
It's been so hard trying to maintain bonds.
I look at love and open doors
but i don't have the energy
Friends, all ever willing, waiting to support,
but it's just too tiring to
talk , too tiring to keep awake.
I never really saw the point in keeping friends anyway,
it always seemed like too much effort,
and then they go to waste.

wait for me
Monday, August 16, 2010
There is something
about the haunted,
that is beautiful beyond words.
how slippery are our tongues,
so quick to utter judgements
to the different
but when the feeling takes it's turn
and possesses you,
you will know how it feels,
to love the hate
to admire the broken
to marry the unwilling
i cannot tell you how i feel,
when life has merely been a passing wind to me,
i await and anticipate the day
i meet my maker,
i have so many questions to ask.
He will take me in His arms
like no one else has ever did,
He will tell me He had loved me all the while,
and has never forsaken me,
He will tell me it was alright to have made mistakes on Earth,
because this is not where i'm meant to be,
He will tell me that I am of meaning to him,
and till that day,
He will watch me from above with loving eyes
until i return home to Him again.

Sunday, August 15, 2010
i dont want to disappoint myself anymore,
please tell me it is okay,
okay to have made mistakes in the past,
okay that i am not the prettiest, the smartest, the most caring,
i am insecure.
i don't know how to chase my dreams because
i don't believe in myself
i love being by myself , the human race
disgusts me
why are we so weak, shallow, immature,
cheap.

i like being out at night, seeing the city lights
bleeding on the roads
the cars , their headlights, so close to me,
it makes my blood run
pure , pleasure.
i dream of the day where i can walk these roads alone
with no one else but myself

its not that i don't love you ,
i think i do -
but i cant trust anyone, anything but the
voice in my head
it has been the only person who has stood
with us through each second.

old friend, you know i can never leave you.
but have mercy,
please,
i beg of you,
let me make this life worthwhile.

solitude is bliss
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Truth be, I would much rather watch the city skyline by myself than spent my night out partying
Truth be, I would much rather spend my time alone than hanging out with friends
I don't mind being alone,
it really isn't that hard.


I have a friend,
he lives inside of me,
he knows everything - the past, the hurt, my loves, my hopes
he helps me to keep sane and
talks to me whenever no one else does
he tells me to leave the past and run,
run,
run,
he says one day i will find my identity, it will be
Just like everything i ever imagined it to be,
it will make sense.
I will sprint,
I will dive,
I will crawl,
Anything, anything
to find myself.


I believe that everyone was born good,
family background, friends, circumstances,
they all don't mean shit.
It was pure Choice that got us where we are.

Friday, July 9, 2010
Angst [æŋst (German) aŋst]
n

A feeling of anxiety or apprehension often accompanied by depression

1. an acute but nonspecific sense of anxiety or remorse
2. (Philosophy) (in Existentialist philosophy) the dread caused by man's awareness that his future is not determined but must be freely chosen
[German]

It will never matter what i do, where i do it, or who will be affected by it.
I will always disappoint someone out there , and that's something I'd never be able to change. Have I been been shortchanging myself all this while or were the expectations made of me inaccurate and unachievable? A big , big heart but easily taken advantaged and influenced by. Talented with so much potential but ill-disciplined and lazy. Key figure of the club but doesn't want to step up and take the lead. I feel stupid, blind, scared, intimidated, afraid and regretful. She says they've been supporting me by throwing opportunities in my face but i've been running away from them - and reality . She says i'm no longer who she thought i was three years ago, cheery and hopeful. Now ? Angsty and restless. What have i been doing. How can I save myself. I know i've made too many mistakes, lost too many friends and lost my sanity all in the short span of a year but you don't know how hard it has been fighting the war inside let alone face the tough world outside.


The human mind is fragile. More scary than any supernatural power and more beautiful than any matter. It will not resist plunging into the deepest corners of your mind. It will love depression, entertain suicide thoughts, and stand in awe of evil things.
But it can, love selflessly and unconditionally , persue good and healthy deeds and make each and everyday you wake up seem like a blessing and a opportunity.

I need God.

depression
Monday, July 5, 2010
its been awhile my old friend,
today, i licked your skin and it reminded me
of how lovely you are.
you are beautiful, you are captivating,
i had buried you so deep in my lies,
i fooled myself you weren't here anymore.
but you will always be there, here and everywhere
as long as i breathe
have you learnt to love?
no, because you haven't killed yourself.
you have seduced my friend, my family,
do you not feel guilt?
i can't keep away from you, you are
like the joy and estacy from kissing.
but you just make me want to kill myself,
my heart, filled of regret and anguish .
i want to kill you ,
it would be a sacrifice worth.
no,don't look at me with your eyes,
i don't want to touch you.
take back your words,
i'm not insane,
you are.


i don't love you ,
i never did .
get out and never come back.

i will follow you wherever you go
Monday, June 28, 2010
Run and laugh,
keep this up and you'll forget the past,
nobody will ever know of it again,
they'll keep it as hidden as the pain

Saturday, June 19, 2010
i forgot how sweet it tasted

Friday, June 18, 2010
i hope it doesnt happen all over again.

Friday, June 11, 2010
i love looking back at my past and feel totally comforted by the simple things that had made me so happy :)

Thursday, June 10, 2010
sometimes you feel sad for no bloody reason and you can't do nothing to get out of it even though you so badly want to . i think it's time to sleep.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010
no it was never about the world
it was always about me
i am a special child
i need your attention,
i need your love.
never put me down because
i wont know how to handle it
the government ,
they don't care
about the bullies and the
magazines
all of you
you all look the same
you are just copies
my head hurts
no one told me sleep was this good.

Monday, June 7, 2010
God > family > friends

what doesnt kill you makes you stronger .

Saturday, June 5, 2010
no more mistakes,
cause in your eyes
i'd like to stay.

what do you do when everything you thought worthy about you is taken away -a pretty face,a slim figure. a good reputation. maybe she's never been called ugly. maybe he's never been called fat. and maybe the sea that would part for her now kills her with each wave that pushes her aside. sometimes i think i'm crazy. when i see celebrities all glamed out and perfect. oh, how much i would give to have what they have-sometimes i get lost. i don't think we see what we're doing and maybe i'm just thinking too much. but give acceptance a chance and maybe everyday will feel that bit brighter.

Friday, June 4, 2010
cupid didn't shoot me with an arrow,
he hit me in the face with a ball.
good job.

Thursday, June 3, 2010
if i ever saw a shooting star, i'd wish for a happily ever after.
if i ever saw a shooting star,
i'd wish for happiness for everyone i love,
but i didn't see a shooting star,
It was a plane on fire.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010
everyone has those days when all you want to do is turn on the air conditioner, turn off the phone, shut the door, eat a bowl of cereals and watch OKto. No?

i miss you.

Monday, May 31, 2010
less is good .

i've been keeping my dreams unbroken
didn't i tell you,
i'll stay for good.

oh sleep, i need you now.

Friday, May 28, 2010
please don't make me cry .

Wednesday, May 19, 2010
hearts recycled but never saved

Sunday, February 7, 2010
what the fuck is wrong with us

Monday, January 18, 2010
the thought of you i fear,
the thought of you drives me up the fucking wall.

I don't want to die
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Oh God, spare us a minute or two
There's so much I've yet to see,
There's so much I've yet to do.

Highlighters and cigarettes
Saturday, January 2, 2010
You left me first, so I can't leave.

Sunday, October 25, 2009
Let depression kick in.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I've tried to climb your steps
I've tried to chase you down
I've tried to tame this mind

Thursday, October 15, 2009
(: Life is good.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009
what to do when you're blind

Saturday, August 1, 2009








i come undone.
baby, you make murder feel good.

look what you've done to me.

Thursday, July 16, 2009
you'll always be the one i know i would never forget.

Keep these memories,
locked up safe and secure.
Ten years from today,
she'll walk down the aisle,
lover's hand in hers,
you promised you would be there.
Sitting there in the pews of the church,
or the one who would lift her veil,
you promised you would be there.

Saturday, July 4, 2009
baby, i'm free falling into your arms.
won't you catch me?

Saturday, June 27, 2009
with 16 seconds left on the clock,
he's on your mind .
i'm losing you and it's effortless

Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Of all the words, you had to say 'goodbye,'

Friday, June 19, 2009
This is the deep and dying breath of
this love that we've been working on
Can't seem to hold you like I want to,
so I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save us
we pulled too many false alarms.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
you were the one i tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me,
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

There's something about you,
I just can't quite figure out.
Everything you do is beautiful,
everything you do is right,
so don't let go of us tonight,
Love's not always black and white.
Oh, Haven't I always loved you?

I would change the world,
if I had a chance.
Treat me like a child,
Throw your arms around me,
Oh please protect me


You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place.

Saturday, June 13, 2009
I need you.
I want you.
I miss you.
I love you.


Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

Wednesday, June 10, 2009
but we weren't meant to last


let's go back,
back to the beginning,
back to when the earth, the sun, the stars are all aligned.

Let the rain fall down
and wake my dreams.
Let it wash away
my sanity.

Friday, June 5, 2009
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

Thursday, June 4, 2009
you're haunting my every second,
my
every
breath .

Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I can hear her say "I love you" like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought I'd see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play "Here Comes The Bride"
But here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight
But here comes goodbye

Why's it have to go from good to gone?

Sunday, May 24, 2009
100 to 0 ,
it's temporary numbness.
i hope it stays this way

Monday, May 18, 2009
you didn't mean to fall in love?

Sunday, May 17, 2009
better not to care?

Tuesday, May 12, 2009
If i died today i wouldn't have had to chance to fly to paris
If i died today i wouldn't have did my best in whatever i did
If i died today i wouldn't have had the chance to live in a manhatten apartment
If i died today i would miss going out with friends
If i died today i would miss going out with family
If i died today i would miss the simple things in life that make me smile
If i died today i wouldn't have the chance to fully understand who i am
If i died today i wouldn't finish my task i was put on earth for
If i died today i would miss the voices of the people i love
If i died today i wouldn't have had the chance to say "i love you"
If i died today i wouldn't have truly loved God to the maximum.
If i died today i would have died with regrets .


But her dreams , give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved.

Sunday, May 10, 2009
hallelujah, hallelujah.
hallelujah,
i will praise you ,
in everything and whatever i do.

Sunday, May 3, 2009
september, i've been waiting for you for so long.

Thursday, April 30, 2009
it's a new life .
another chance to start over.



PS: i love you . you know that already don't you?

Monday, April 27, 2009
lost . where are you?

Sunday, April 26, 2009
time & time again , you're not reading the signs.

i can't think of anything else.

Thursday, April 23, 2009
somewhere we went wrong

Sunday, April 19, 2009
the vast empty space brings me peace,
i don't like you talking to me,
far far away ,
where i can be alone.
lost in the ocean, amongst the skyscrapers
or up high in the sky , anywhere but here
please?
This is not my heart, this is not my life.

because you're only almost here









PS: happy birthday.
1825 days of being friends, aren't i sick of you already? xD

Sunday, April 12, 2009
You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll sing it in a love song



live in bright lights.
wear the shoes of the unfortunate.
i feel different.
nothings the same; we're out of the box.
the leopards move too fast.
& the hunters become hunted .



PS: drown myself in good things.

Monday, April 6, 2009
escape`

im just too tired & i'm not sorry.


no one's happy. nothing satisfies this hunger.
i thought no one felt the way i did, luckily
i've found my fellow comrade . but, both are
wounded. as soldiers we try to carry on despite
our setbacks, but in the end no one is strong enough.

Father Father help us, send some guidance from above.

Saturday, April 4, 2009
:D SHOOPERJUUNEOR.


l.o.v.e their new song "sorry sorry"



dance moves ftfw much? >:D


okays, so this week had drama rehearsals for like 4/5 days?
got our costumes yesterday , and my my.
SYF is in 2 weeks time and the midyears are in a months time ):
i told mrstan about my schedule & the sec 3 changes i'm having
a hard time coping with , and she told me to chill out.
well, i'll try to. the most scariest thing happened the other day,
this guy just walked up next to me , turned his head and stared
straight in my eye. wtff? screwballs . life's been rather harsh
on me recently, although it has always been . just hope that
things will turn out for the better :D


so much things, so little time.
people walk past me, i feel nothing.
emptiness

Monday, March 30, 2009
take me far from here.


they take it away. so whats left for those who are weak?
love, its a strange and funny thing .

Wednesday, March 25, 2009
wish i didn't care



SYNERGY NIGHT FTFW! :D

Sunday, March 22, 2009
Take me somewhere where nobody gives a damn & i can just
be who i am .



I'm here listening to the 80s & the 90s, it's way past midnight
and i'm dancing in my chair. How fucking awesome can life be if
we just change how we see it.

Seacrest out!

Ng out! xD

Friday, March 20, 2009






The quality of the photos was killed ._.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009
my legs are cramping & the pain
feels like being hit on the face by
a flying flat screen plasma television
that has been burnt over a flame
& rubbed and covered with campbell
soup.

Monday, March 16, 2009


To live in fantasy & never understanding reality .
escaping to our plastic worlds of make believe.
maybe one gorgeous day , we will decide to stop
and ask for help. pride betrayed. then only can
we live with purpose.

till that day comes, we will continue frolicking
in our faecal matter.

Sunday, March 15, 2009
went to four seasons hotel today ! :D
it's like this posh hotel for the rich .
went there after having brunch [breakfast+lunch]
with family & aunt from hk .
her company books her all these high-end hotels
& i go there to seesee and take free soap :D haha.
while crossing the road today, we kinda Jaywalked
and almost got banged by a car. he horned really
loudly and my primary 4 cousin did the most
hilarious & unsuspected thing ever . He pointed
his middle finger at the driver -.- *applause*
so, then after that go walkwalk around orchard road
then eat ramen then came home by bus.
oh , how boring life is.

Thursday, March 12, 2009
It's like telling a child how the world works.

Why do things happen?
because they allow us to
think the unthinkable
move the unmovable
shake the unshakable
& everything happens because it's all part of my purpose.

Trails and tribulations await but none will shake me and in everything
i give thanks.


Hallelujah

Monday, March 9, 2009
it's a damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i don't know who you are but
i'm with you

Sunday, March 8, 2009
" i do "

so, went to jeromes & fayth's wedding yesterday
congratulations to both of them and i hope
you guys have a blissful & awesome marriage
life together. make more children and collect
all your baby bonuses :DD haha.

the dinner was alright, skipped 2 dishes cause
i couldnt eat them. one was some weird seafood
dish complete with scallop and celery.
wtflols. the other was sharks fin , which i
havent eaten for 6 years already and still
counting. the reason why i don't eat them?
because i've seen how brutally murdered they
are killed & i'm just doing my part to stop
the effing murders. yes, another fact about
me many don't know (: Oh, and i drank red wine
yesterday and daryl said he didnt like the
smell of it ._. maybe i should just stick to
cranberry juice, right dev ? :DDDD <3

alrightyy. time to go shoppppiiinngggg at
far east . cya guyss lttrrr .





Okay, fugly photo capture by me of dev , but he's still sexy
anyways

Friday, March 6, 2009
i love that bastard

im back from camp!

it's been so fun , & i miss the place already.
the instructors were so nice & i learnt how to say
" my name is..." and " i love you" in spanish and in
french :D i'm reallyy happy that i managed to
do the high elements although i think i was shaking
pretty badly up there , haha. i was coupled or 3
days and 2 nights with a friend and honestly speaking,
he's the WORST 3-days-2-nights
boyfriend EVER xDDD! on the second day, we had to
run around doing some activities and the only
highlight of them are aaron's awesome fear of ropes xD!
thank you aaron for awaking all of us on the true
horrors of ropes ;D!! After those days spent with my
class, i really think that we've really bonded as a class
& learnt more about each other. so, yeah, awesome job guys!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009
tomorrow is on its way]

camp's tomorrow , fuyeah.

Monday, March 2, 2009
The best part of getting caught in the rain, then being locked outside the house with the extreme need to pee and eat something is going back in the house, going on youtube and watching dev patel laugh

Tuesday, February 24, 2009
take me far away

Monday, February 23, 2009
well i felt like blabbling today .
(btw, don't you just love this new skin?)

recently i've been having major time splits of dejavu (i don't know what that meant but it sounds cool)
it's like 'hey, wasn't i here before' or 'how come that seems so darn familiar' ya know? and dejavu is kinda weird yet kinda cool at the same time.
like for example yesterday when i was coming home and sitting at the busstop
and this car drove past and i said, " hmmm....that car ..." and i thought it was
some relative or some of those distant cousins whom you only seem during chinese new year. haha. okaayy, this is a kinda short post but yeah it beats those one-liners i usually put.

po, po, po, po, poke her face~

Saturday, February 21, 2009
hallelujah

i just want a change of scenery

Sunday, February 15, 2009
Happy valentines day !<3[though i'm one day late X:]

went to eli's house and church yesterday.
church wasnt as awkward as i thought it was,
and i met a new friend, roxabel (:
nothing much to say , cause i'm too upset
that i lost my file and a maths textbook ,and
common test is in 2 days time!

[shoutout]
C,
Jiayou on making the wrong right. I'll have your back
through everything and support you from singapore.
make me proud or else .... xD

the other 3 musketeers,
Hahhaah you guys all suck *points finger and laughs* xDDDDDDD
*does victory dance*

Friday, February 13, 2009
: Just a minor setback.
-everything will turn out fine, hopefully.

Friday the 13th, you've killed me
once again.

Thursday, February 12, 2009
the miles seem to get longer

Monday, February 9, 2009
nothing is the same anymore

Thursday, February 5, 2009
tone life down

Tuesday, February 3, 2009
sooooo i'm doing a shout out :D
try to guess who's who . ^^

R,
KOOOORR ! you seem so angry these few days judging from your msn nicknames ):
hope everything's fine . yesyes, it's been 4 years already. promise that
you'll remember me for life alright :D the dead angelz will live on forever!
RAWRRRRR!!!

J,
i never seem to be able to figure you out :/ (cause you're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no) haha. you're still a mystery O: SPLITZO!

N,
my pebble and highlighter lover. we've laughed over redundant and really random situations together . haven't talked to you in awhile since you left SHPS, come
visit real soon :D [PS: i didn't know you cosplayed and i hope your brother is
still hot] xDDDD

V,
how was your trip to sunny singapore? :D glad that we could get together
and eat lunch the other day. pretty girl, take care of yourself in Shanghai,
be careful of................................................[lucius]! XD

K,
i don't know where to even start. all i've got to say about you is that
i hope you will keep the memories locked away and safe. be nice to the girls
in your class alright? ^^ have fun in life.

B,
i havent recieved my present yet ): even when you're not here, i hear all the
stories about you from my friends. ahh, your promise, i hope you'll stick to it.
see you in a few years time :D

A[F],
*throws you a jacket* heard it's really cold there :D
i bet the girls are putting on more make-up to hide what the cold
has worn out. poor thing , hehe .

Z,
ultimate emo ever , dont fret ! have fun in college , don't pass out there !

[i'm getting a bloody headache , but i want to continue this D:]

R,
run baby run don't ever look back!

Y[A],
where's xy D:< ily, and no, paris is still perfectly fine. xD

D,
DUDDDDDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. don't get into fights anymore lah.
sorry i always dont want to go out or call ): ily kay. jiayou on winning
over that lady of yours xD

C,
where'd you go? i miss you so ): partyy animall, don't get drunk and do
something that will majorly upset me okay D: study hard even though you
think you can't O: remember to not even spent a SINGLE CENT from your
angbao money cause it'll be used for something even better later on.
promise xD i promise i've been a good girl :3

E,C2;
haha you guys. i'm having a really bad headache lahh ):
i'll write a seperate shoutout for yyou guys another day.
it'll be more special also , hehe :D

Monday, February 2, 2009
yay minimalism!